imigination

The only reason I went to boarding school was ‘I just wanna get out from this hell’. Yes. I agreed to go to SMKA Kuala Selangor just because I wanted to stay away from her.  If that was the only way to achieve my dream, I must get out from that hellish life.

Yes. Tapi jika boleh diputar waktu.aku akan betulkan niat aku time itu. Bukankah setiap perbuatan itu, ibunya ‘niat’? Jadi tidaklah aku menjadi yg seperti sekarang ini. heck. That makes me sound like a bad person lah pulak.

Whatever it was, thanks a lot to the place where I belonged. 5 years in SMKA Kuala Selangor taught me a lot. I’ve become ‘somebody’ at least. Eh bukan, I’m on my way to become somebody. insyaAllah. Thank a lot to my teachers. Thanks for teaching me about love, respect, loyalty, brotherhood, tolerate and list go.

Tadi time belek-belek buku evidence I got an imagination of what type of girl I’ll become if I never schooled at religious school.

I think I’d be a girl in t-shirt and sneakers. I’ll be hanging out with my gay friends.  I’d have a collection of cap. I think I’d wear baju kurung only in aidilfitri. And I think I’d never touch baju kebaya. And I mistakenly thought lipstick as a crayon. I’d become goofy type of girl who don’t care much about the pimple on my nose. And I’d be the kind who would stuff food inside my mouth in front of a guy, just don’t care how ridiculous I’d look.

Jika itu yg terjadi, aku takdelah aku nak membebel-bebel bile kasut aku hilang. Sungguh kurang ajar siepe yg mencuri kasut aku. Dan juga yg mencuri tali b** aku.

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Mood:

Ceria nye. Rambut aku bau sangat wangi. Guna shampoo pegaga HPA. Sambil keringkan rambut sambil dengar Radiostar-pada senyumanmu. Dan tersenyum

Aku teringat si’dia’.

Tapi ingat dan rindu itu 2 perkara berbeza kan?